Tuesday, September 4, 2012

First Day; A Letter

My dearest Lilly,

Today was your first day of kindergarten, and I would bet I was more terrified than you were!


You looked so grown up in your spankin' new Skechers, toting your purple, kitty cat backpack.  My breath caught in my chest as I took your picture and thought, "I can't believe you're almost six and a kindergartener!  How did that happen?"  Time passes quickly when you least expect it to.

We drove to your school and talked about all the marvelous adventures you will have this year.  I felt a lump rise in my throat when we pulled into the elementary school's parking lot.  You probably don't know this, but I took a couple of deep breaths before opening your car door.

And the first thing you did, my darling girl, was reach for my hand as you slid out of your seat.

We made our way to the east doors, to congregate with the other anxious kindergarteners (and their anxious parents) before going into the school.  With each step across that dark pavement, you moved closer to me, tucking your shoulder behind my hip.  I knew you were scared when you held my hand tighter.  I held on tighter too.

Your teacher greeted us with a radiant smile; her face as bright as sunshine.  She welcomed you to class with absolute sincerity, and quickly saw you were worried about your first day.  I watched her reach for (and hold) your hand as you walked into the classroom.   And I knew then--from that small gesture of love--that you were going to be okay.

Sometimes--in life--we have to do things that are hard; things that are foreign or uncomfortable to us.  Often we are faced with frightening tasks; bravery seems fleeting when we must stare down our fears.  We wonder how we'll find strength in the middle of the tumult, when our hardships cease to abate.  Sadly (but naturally), we cower and quake when we feel our faith start to fade.

But I want you to remember this important thing, Lilly:  There will always be a hand for you to hold.  A hand to help you through it.

You are surrounded by loved ones; the members of your family.  They will strive to be there for you, to champion you through rough patches and to celebrate your triumphs.  You have a good heart and loving spirit, and will make friends wherever you go.  They will be there for you, too.  Your friends will show their love through Coke slurpees and Popcorners.  They will send you text messages and emails when YOUR son or daughter goes to kindergarten.  They will call you to make sure you are okay.  They will leave Diet Coke on your doorstep (and a mark on your heart)!  These are the ways they will "hold your hand"--to offer you solace and support.


Then there's me, Lilly.  Don't forget you have me.  My hand will be a constant; continually outstretched to you.  All you have to do is take it.


My best to you this school year,
and with love,
Your Mama                       

26 comments:

  1. Cherish & embrace each precious moment. These days are fleeting moments like sand in an hour glass. To prove my point, my youngest child is now in college. How did this happen? I haven't a clue. It seems like only yesterday I brought home our first, our second, and then our third little bundle home from the hospital. Gee, I did I just give way how old I am? It's inevitable the truth would come out someday that I'm not 20-something, but instead 50. Okay, 50 is the new 30 so I don't feel so bad after all.

    Oh well, where was I? Oh, I was just rambling wasn't I? Anywho, thanks for linking up with us on Wayback Wednesdays. It's always great to meet a new bloggy friend. I hope you'll decide to hop over to my little niche in Blogosphere at Cathy Kennedy's Blog.

    Now following you! =D

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    1. Dearest Cathy Kennedy! I must say you seem absolutely delightful! I mean it! Thank you so much for the wonderful comment on this post. I wholeheartedly agree that 50 is the new 30!!! Which makes you my peer! HA HA! I so appreciate your comment about "cherishing and embracing each precious moment." I think it's easy to get "bogged down" in the every day and forget to do that. It's important to strive to find the joy in every day. It's so great to me you too, bloggy friend! Thank you so much for stopping by, for commenting, and for following. Best wishes for a happy week!

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  2. when she goes to college for the second time and is really nervous-her Auntie Erika hopes she has two best friends who will walk her to the quad and cheer for her as she turns and walks away to her first class! :D

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    1. HA HA HA!!! ERIKA! What a cute and funny comment! Love it! Love you, sis!

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  3. You made me cry you turd. What a beautiful message to a beautiful little girl.

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    1. HA HA HA HA!!! Oh my gosh! You called me a turd! See? See? This is why I love you, my friend. Well that and you teach me about "smooshing" chocolate tootsie rolls and orange tootsie rolls together to create a little bit of heaven on earth! HA HA!

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  4. This will be me with my youngest tomorrow. Just thinking about it makes my stomach flip & reading your sweet letter almost brought me to tears! They grow up too fast don't they?! :)

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    1. Hey Becky!! Thank you so much for visiting me and for commenting! Yes, they do grow up TOO TOO fast. It kills me! I need a cookie! HA!

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  5. What a precious picture of her excitement! And what a terrific friend you have to know exactly what you needed when you arrived home.

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    1. Thanks, JP! You are always sweet to stop by and comment. I hope you know I'm grateful for it, and I always look forward to hearing from you. (And P.S. I wore that "Kindergarten Mom Survivor" badge with pride! HA!

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  6. Awww this totally made me tear up. What a sweet post.

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    1. Thank you so much for the kind comment, doll! Glad you enjoyed the post!

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  7. Such a sweet post. I can still remember my daughter's first day of school and that was 23 years ago. There will be so many firsts in her life and you never really stop worrying, but you get through it... together. Enjoy all of the firsts you have ahead and keep plenty of diet coke and good friends on hand. :~)

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    1. Dearest Mary! Thanks a whole bunch for your terrific comment! I so very much appreciated all you said...and giggled at the comment about having "plenty of diet coke and good friends on hand." Never underestimate the power of friends and Coke, right?! HA HA! Thanks for bringing a smile to my face and for reaching out to me. I hope your week is wonderful!

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  8. Too sweet. I have a new Kindergartner this year too *sniff* We had a rough 'start' but things have gotten much better. My mommy heart would not have been able to stand it if things hadn't improved! I love your letter to your daughter, just beautiful.

    p.s. I found your blog through the 'Sit and Relax Weekend' blog hop!

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    1. Irene!! You are a sweetheart!! Thank you bunches and bunches for this comment. You have a new kindergartner too?!?!? How are you? Are you okay? Do YOU need a Diet Coke? HA HA! I hope you know I'd pour you one if I could! HA! Glad to hear things have improved. My poor Lilly is very slow to warm up to new things...but we'll hang in there. SO SO glad you found my blog, stopped by, and commented. THANK YOU! I always appreciate it! Have a happy Monday!

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  9. What a beautiful post. I am sure that her first day was awesome. It is hard to let them go. My child is entering Year 2 and I still have problems that first morning of school.

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    1. Cynthia, I am so glad you stopped by and enjoyed this post. I imagine first days of a new school year will always be tough on my mama heart! Thank you for the nice compliment and for visiting my little corner of the blogosphere. XOXO!

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  10. OMG! That was so sweet. I am whipping tears from my eyes! I found you on the Let Them Eat Cake Hop. I love the blog. Come on by and say hello.
    http://www.thesexysinglemommy.com

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    1. HEY TY!!!! Thank you so much for stopping by my little ol' blog! I love your blog! I noticed you've moved! (I just got done reading the post about the fool trying to scam you out. CRAZY! My jaw hit the floor as I was reading it! UNBELIEVABLE!) Anyway, thanks for following and for showing your support. You made my day, girl! Have a good week!

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  11. This is beautiful. As I read this I imagined Lily reading this when she is grown. What a lovely way to capture her first day at school. :)

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  12. Aw, thank you, thank you, thank you Debbie! Such a nice thing to say! I am crazy about you! So glad you are my bloggy friend!

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  13. You gave me sweet goosebumps Aleisha!!! Happy first year of school Lilly!!! You are going to love it :)
    You will both adjust in no time, I know it is hard at first...thinking of you my friend, you are amazing!!! xoxo

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  14. this made me teary :*) what a beautiful letter to lilly.
    she will read this someday and cry. i am so glad things are going well.
    she looks so grown up with her jazzy skechers and backpack!
    give her a squeeze from maria and "steven with a v" :)
    xoxoxo
    maria <3

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  15. This is so sweet! How cute is your little one :) I love the little ribbon from your friend - so nice! Found you via the Aloha Friday blog hop!
    xoxo,
    Nikki at www.bedazzlesafterdark.com
    Enter my giveaway for a NYFW Beauty Bag here!

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