Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Why Are You Sleeping? Part ONE

I love the movie, Finding Nemo!


I'm sure many of you have seen it. (I mean, come on...who HASN'T seen it?!) It's a story about a father and son relationship; about a fish with short-term memory loss, sharks that are vegetarians, and the magic that can happen among marine life stuck in a tank together. It's fantastic!

And then of course, there's the dreaded Darla. The obnoxious and freckled red-head with braces and pigtails. The monster that strikes fear in the very scales of our fishy friends. She's nutty...and I kind of love her!

Nemo--one of our main characters who is taken from the reef from an orthodontist--is meant to be a gift for Darla. When she arrives at the orthodontist's office (who happens to not only be the doctor straightening her gnarly grill, but her uncle as well), hilarity ensues. Nemo plays dead in his plastic "pet store" bag to avoid being Darla's next victim. Darla sees him--eyes closed, belly up--and begins shaking and shaking the bag. "FISHY," she yells, "WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?"

Why are you sleeping?

I humbly and painfully confess that that is a question I have been asking God lately. As heartache and trial have rained down on my household--like the snap and the flash of a sudden summertime downpour--I have wondered if an ever present and ever watchful God I believe in, has fallen asleep on the job. Hello? Do you see me? I'm right here! Why have you forgotten about me and my family? 

James has been sick for the past year and a half with sinus problems and a post nasal drip that never seems to fully go away. My migraines--an annoying ailment I have suffered with since I was nineteen-years-old--have been coming with a frequency and intensity that is extremely uncharacteristic of my headache history. It's been nauseating, inconvenient, and a little scary.

He and I are a pair! We have been to several doctors, have had blood work and CT scans done, have been prescribed various medications. Eventually it was decided that James required sinus surgery and a deviated septum repair. As for me...my extremely low iron levels warranted weekly iron infusions. For four weeks! (Fun Fact: Iron carries the oxygen in your blood. And apparently my poor brain isn't getting enough oxygen. Which really explains a lot! Ha!)

In the midst of the medical mayhem, we've had jobs to do, kids to take care of, a yard to tend to, a house to maintain. It's been a little intense.

God, why are you sleeping?

One night, in a particularly vulnerable moment, I had a breakdown. James and I were lying on our bed, talking about how downtrodden we felt, when I started to cry. It had become too hard, too much, too painful, too many toos.

As silence settled upon our spirits and filled up our dimly lit room, I recalled something an extraordinary woman, a spiritual teacher in my church, once said: "When you can't give more, when you've gone beyond your ability to give, then sit still. Call on angels to come to you. Be still and get full."

That is exactly what I decided to do, my dear ones. I decided to sit still, pour out my heart and soul in prayer, and call on angels to come to me. Because I can do that. I am divinely entitled to angelic help. We all are. What a gift.

Have you ever called on angels to help you? If you do, they will.

To be continued...



"I believe we move and have our being in the presence of heavenly messengers and of heavenly beings. We are not separate from them...I claim that we live in their presence, they see us, they are solicitous for our welfare, they love us now more than ever...Their love for us and their desire for our well being must be greater than that which we feel for ourselves." --Joseph Fielding Smith    

      

6 comments:

  1. I can't wait for part 2! Your writing always inspires me. I have felt this, and I have turned to God and sat still - I LOVE this so much! I have called for help during the racism, the infertility, the miscarriages, the failed adoption, our multiple physical and mental special needs daughter. I have called, sometimes it comes, other times I am strengthened enough. Thanks for expressing this, I have felt this, I have asked...

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  2. Your expression is beautiful! You voiced the pain and heartache, and you also have been counseled well to be still. That is a wonderful nugget of advice. Yesterday, I was sitting on the deck (the most peaceful place for me) when my daughter reminded me I should be quilting for the clients I have. I recall being a bit resentful about the remark, even though it was true. But, I didn't jump up and go in to sew. I lingered and chatted with my daughter for several more minutes until I was ready to leave the "be still" moment and then go back to work. Thank you, thank you for sharing. You are a blessing to so many. I hope you know that.

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